Fangirls, recently I’ve been talking myself up online, and to my friends. Out of nowhere, I’ve gained this gusto, this confidence, that I can’t really explain. I’m okay with it, but I do worry that sometimes it’s too much.
I know one of the contributing factors is one of the people who runs the school club with me. It’s a dude who compliments me constantly, and I’ve grown to accept it. It feels good, to have someone repeatedly tell you they’re attractive, even more so when they are gaining nothing from the interaction. He knows he won’t get anywhere with me, and I know he isn’t trying to get into my pants. He’s just somebody who feels that compliments shouldn’t be held back. And it feels amazing to have someone like that in my life.
Another reason I’ve been gaining confidence, is because I’m starting to improve my self worth. I can do some cool stuff, and I don’t look too bad doing it. Realizing that has made me feel so much better, about myself and the work that I do.
School has also helped. I’m only taking two classes this semester, but they’re the last two I need for my degree. They’re both project based digital arts classes, so there is a lot of work that has to be put into them. Critiques can be difficult, but they’re also incredibly rewarding. I love critiques, because you learn what can be improved about your work, but also what’s great about it. That is building my confidence, and we’re only a couple weeks in. I feel like the learning, from both professors and other students, can open my eyes to new things and better ways to do work.
Fangirls, you all deserve to be confident. You’re amazing ladies (and gents), whether or not you realize it. I know it can be hard to appreciate yourselves, but do your best. I think taking a night or two for myself every week to just take a bath is improving how I feel, because it’s me time. I don’t check my emails, or text, or anything. I put on netflix, paint my nails, and relax in the tub.
When do you feel most confident? What makes you feel worth it? Regardless of what it is, you deserve it, and keep it up!
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