Fangirls, I know I apologized yesterday for being off the grid, but I think it’s good to detox from everything now and then. I’m working on getting back on the horse with exercise, writing, and everything.
Almost 2 weeks ago, I ran my 5k. It was exhausting, but incredibly rewarding. I’m working on getting back to having fitness as a priority. I took some time off of running and my strength training, and when I got up to do some exercises today (before my run), I felt like garbage. I’ve found that I’m feeling less fit because I took less than a week off of everything (but I still kept track of my calories) and I am really feeling it. I noticed that my body feels less strong, and running is more difficult. I did the barrier run (my favorite because it pushes me to be strong instead of fast), and I could only run the first 3 (of 3.5) miles. It felt like garbage.
The wedding that I was nervous about was this past weekend. We had a blast, and a couple folks commented on my weight loss, and that was so gratifying. I definitely didn’t expect to enjoy myself (I worry about judgmental families), but I danced and had fun all night! It was a fantastic time, and I’m so happy for Kelly and Brandon.
I also took a massive step on Monday; I signed my very first lease. I will be moving to Maryland in August; the next thing is to find a job. My coworker said that she found a job a month after moving to florida, and I’m intimidated by everything about moving, but I’m hopeful that I’ll figure it out. Everything will be okay.
So my week has been wild, and I’m tired and just feeling defeated, but I’ll make it. I am 3 pounds from my goal weight (165lbs) and that is blowing my mind. I’m nervous because my body image hasn’t improved as much as I had hoped it would. But I think I’ll get there and that should be enough. We’ll keep moving forward, and everything will be wonderful.
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