I visited my family in New York this week, and it was quite wonderful, but also frustrating. My depression has been worsening and it makes finding a place that feels like home seem impossible; I feel like since I’ve moved out, me being back is a hassle to my family, especially since my grandmother is staying there, and tat makes for a pretty full house. But at the same time, I don’t feel very at home in Maryland either. I feel like everyone that has done anything there to help out is doing so because they are friends with Rob, and want him to be happy, not because of me.
Fangirls, you need to see Moana. It is all I talk and think about, and the only music I listen to. It’s beyond phenomenal, and I want everyone to love it as much as I do.
Fangirls, I really like subscription boxes. I try not to get them though, because I have a lot of products. But when I saw that Julep was doing a free November box, I couldn’t resist. As a birthday present to myself, I paid the $2.50 or so in shipping, and had one sent to the apartment. It got to us right on my birthday, and it had three rad products in it.
I went into this movie with very specific expectations. I wanted a movie about magical animals, and Newt Scamander finding them in New York City. That isn’t quite what I got, but I still really enjoyed myself.
I know that journals usually happen on Fridays, but this past Friday was my birthday. I struggle pretty hard with birthdays; I tend to not feel like I’ve accomplished as much as others my age, and that gives me a lot of anxiety. I have had birthdays where I couldn’t leave my room because I was so overwhelmed. It seems like my worst birthdays are milestone birthdays, and luckily 24 isn’t that much of a milestone (unlike 16, where you’re *supposed to* get your permit, or 18 where you’re legal, or even 21 when you can purchase and consume alcohol). I did pretty okay for most of Friday, and I think it’s because I’m very lucky to have kind and understanding people in my life.
Fangirls, as many of you know, I’m an idiot for Lush products. I love their collections, their mission, everything. So last month (when I was still buying beauty treats for myself) I picked up a good sized chunk of their Holiday collection.